Saturday, January 5, 2013

New Year, New Me

Let me start this by saying I'm not a writer. I just want to track my goals and maybe let somethings out. So here goes.

I've always been "bigger" since middle school. I wouldn't say fat, i would say just a little thicker. I had problems with this sometimes but I figured out how to dress my self and still think I looked good. I wasn't ever worried about my weight in high school. I got out of high school and watched what I ate better and lost a little weight and I was happy.

Then I met my husband. For the first year I stayed the same weight and was doing well with my eating. Then we moved in together. Then I got married & pregnant. Then my weight took off. Between being a good wife and making comfort food for dinner every night and being pregnant I blew up like a blimp. I went from 160 to 260 in about a year and a half. I had my daughter and lost about 40 lbs in the next year. Then I got pregnant again and I'm happy to say I only gained 22 lbs with my son. I lost it all plus some by the time he was 2 weeks old. I guess breastfeeding and chasing a 22 month old really burns some calories. I was extremely happy and felt good. Mind you I was still over weight in the 215ish range. So over the last 3 years my weight has gone up. I'm not very active, I don't eat right, and I have the biggest sweet tooth ever!

I feel huge. I'm uncomfortable. I am lazy. I hate all my clothes. I hate the way I look. I'm embarrassed of my body.

I want to be happy and confident in my body. I want to run a marathon. I want to chase my kids. I want to ride bikes with them. I want to be a hot mama.

This year is gonna be the year to change that. I've started getting on our treadmill every morning (except Sundays). I've also started to count my calories and to make wiser decisions about what I eat. That 300 calorie muffin may be good but the bowl of cereal and banana will keep me fuller longer and is less calories.

So here's the starting points.

Weight: 270 lbs.
Shirt size: 2x
Pants: 22 (which are tight)

I don't really have a set goal. I just want to be healthier and happy. I know I want to get at least under 200 lbs.

Here's the before pictures. (ignore the horrible pics and the dirty mirror and clothes on the floor)

So here goes nothing. I WILL keep pushing myself. I WILL lose weight. I WILL be healthier. I WILL be happier with myself!

Happy 2013 everyone! May your wildest wishes come true!!