Saturday, January 5, 2013

New Year, New Me

Let me start this by saying I'm not a writer. I just want to track my goals and maybe let somethings out. So here goes.

I've always been "bigger" since middle school. I wouldn't say fat, i would say just a little thicker. I had problems with this sometimes but I figured out how to dress my self and still think I looked good. I wasn't ever worried about my weight in high school. I got out of high school and watched what I ate better and lost a little weight and I was happy.

Then I met my husband. For the first year I stayed the same weight and was doing well with my eating. Then we moved in together. Then I got married & pregnant. Then my weight took off. Between being a good wife and making comfort food for dinner every night and being pregnant I blew up like a blimp. I went from 160 to 260 in about a year and a half. I had my daughter and lost about 40 lbs in the next year. Then I got pregnant again and I'm happy to say I only gained 22 lbs with my son. I lost it all plus some by the time he was 2 weeks old. I guess breastfeeding and chasing a 22 month old really burns some calories. I was extremely happy and felt good. Mind you I was still over weight in the 215ish range. So over the last 3 years my weight has gone up. I'm not very active, I don't eat right, and I have the biggest sweet tooth ever!

I feel huge. I'm uncomfortable. I am lazy. I hate all my clothes. I hate the way I look. I'm embarrassed of my body.

I want to be happy and confident in my body. I want to run a marathon. I want to chase my kids. I want to ride bikes with them. I want to be a hot mama.

This year is gonna be the year to change that. I've started getting on our treadmill every morning (except Sundays). I've also started to count my calories and to make wiser decisions about what I eat. That 300 calorie muffin may be good but the bowl of cereal and banana will keep me fuller longer and is less calories.

So here's the starting points.

Weight: 270 lbs.
Shirt size: 2x
Pants: 22 (which are tight)

I don't really have a set goal. I just want to be healthier and happy. I know I want to get at least under 200 lbs.

Here's the before pictures. (ignore the horrible pics and the dirty mirror and clothes on the floor)

So here goes nothing. I WILL keep pushing myself. I WILL lose weight. I WILL be healthier. I WILL be happier with myself!

Happy 2013 everyone! May your wildest wishes come true!!

Friday, September 23, 2011

Scarf Swap

This year I participated in Meredith's Scarf Swap over at
I got paired up with Meagan at

She sent me the cutest scarf. Its my first one and I can't wait for it to cool down so I can wear it.

Sorry about my less than stellar photo skills.

Anywho I love my scarf and am so happy I joined in on this.

Thank you Meagan!!!

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Book Club: Black Heels to Tractor Wheels

So I know I skipped the last set of questions for Ape House but I do want to say I loved it. I look forward to reading Water For Elephants. But on to Black Heels.
So far I have to say I'm loving it and don't want to put it down. So on to the questions.

Has this book brought you back to the beginning of a romantic relationship in your life?

Yes! It makes me think of when I started to date my husband. I keep thinking about dates and having fun together while getting to know each other.

What surprised you about Ree? If this was your first time reading about her background, did anything surprise you about her "beginnings?"

I haven't read her blog or anything about her. I borrowed her book from the library and got her cookbook at the same time. I plan to start looking at her blog. I'm in love with her story so I'm excited to learn more about her.

While reading Part I of Black Heels, did you find yourself comparing your own love life/story to Ree's?

I totally was/am comparing my "story" with Ree's story. I've found similarities and differences between the two. I wouldn't change my story but I love hearing about Ree.

Would you have handled ex-boyfriend (J) the same way or differently than Ree did?

I would have broke it off completely in the beginning. I'm very blunt when it comes to things like that and I wouldn't have let it get as far as it did. If he showed up like J did I would have done the same thing Ree did.

Have you ever made a life-changing decision based on a guy in your life? And how did it work out for you?

I have and I thank god everyday that I made the decision. It worked out great and because of it I ended up married to my husband with 2 beautiful children.

How do you think Ree's family felt that she was just going to give up going to Chicago for a guy she had just met?

I think her parents are to busy with their own problems to really worry about what she is doing. Her younger sister thinks shes not smart but I think she understands. I think her brother in Chicago thinks she is dumb and making a horrible choice.

If you were Ree and started to question your life plan (leaving Cali, moving to Chicago, being independent for a while) would you feel when this sudden romance came into your life at the 'wrong' time?

I'm a hopeless romantic so I probably would have just gone with it. I would have thought it was bad timing but I probably would have done but what Ree did.

How do you think the situation with Ree's parents affected her relationship with Marlboro Man? (Or do think it did not affect her?)

I think it's going to make them stronger. I think she's going to lean on the Marlboro Man and its going to make them closer.

Have you ever felt an instant connection with someone? How did it turn out?

With the first person not well but with the second it turned out great. We are married and happy!

What made you relate to Ree? In what ways could you not relate to her?

I felt the same way with my husband as Ree does with Marlboro Man. My husband was also a little "country" and I was more city "High maintenance". The only difference between me and Ree is we didn't move to the county.

I love all the details of Ree's cooking for Marlboro Man in the early stages of their relationship. Have you ever made anything for the guy in your life that was just an utter disaster? Did he choke it down anyway?

Yes I made a few things that he choked down but then joked about it later. He was a good cook though and usually made the food.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Ape House Ch 13-25

Ch 13-25 of Ape House

1. Would you watch or be tempted to watch a show like Ape House?
Yes I'm sure I would tune in but once I realized what it was all about I would be pretty upset. I think its horrible the way they are treated and how thy are making it about the sexual conduct.

2. Do you think John did the right thing by quitting his job and moving to L.A.?
Yes, I think it was right. His boss was wrong to give Cat his article and I think John should find a new employer and be with his wife.

3. We haven't seen a whole lot of Isabel in this section, but what do you think of Peter now that we know more about him?
I think Peter is a lying, no good scumbag. He lied about his prior "experiments". He lied about being faithful to Isabel. I'm thinking he lied about knowing what happened to the apes. I really dislike him.

4. Can John turn the ape story for the tabloid into something he is proud of? Is he getting a little bit of redemption by being assigned to his dream story again even if it is for a tabloid?
John is defineatly getting redemption with this story. I believe he will be very proud of his work and I think it's gonna end up in the times not the tabloid. It's going to be to good of a story.

5. Have your thoughts on John and Amanda's marriage changed since last week? Where do you see their marriage headed?
I think they love each other but I still don't think it's gonna work. Of something first happen with Isabel I think thy are going to split die to the differences they have. I don't believ John wants children and I think L.A. is changing Amanda.

6. What do you think will end up happening to the apes?
I think Isabel is going to save them but I think a tragedy is going to happen first.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Ape House Questions Chapters 1-12

1. What was your initial reaction to the idea of a language lab with bonobos who are capable of having conversations with humans?
I was very shocked at how the apes could communicate! Its amazing how they underfoot what the people were signing/saying to them. They responded back so well.

2. Isabel said early in the book that the apes know they're apes and know that the humans are humans, but they don't see any superiority with either... What do you think the major difference is between the two?
I think the big difference is that the apes love and care about everyone equally there's no difference between the species to them. Whereas the humans just see them as animals.

3. What are your thoughts on John and his feelings toward Isabel? How do you think their relationship will play out?
I think John connects with her on a deeper level than he realizes. I think they might end up together as the book goes on.

4. How do you think Isabel will respond to the apes being taken?
Isabel is going to be angry and heartbroken. I think she's going to fight to find them and get them back.

5. Do you think Celia is part of the team that ambushed the learning center?
I think Celia could have originally been part of the group but once she seen how things were with the apes I believe she opted out. I think she cares for the apes and Isabel.

6. What are your thoughts on John and his relationship with Amanda?
I don't believe their relationship is going to make it. Once she moves I think they are just going to separate more and more. They just don't seem right together.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010



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Monday, October 12, 2009

Check ups

So we had Madison's 2 year and Jackson's 4 month well baby on the 29th of Sept. Here's the stats.

Madison: Height 34 1/2 inches
Weight 26 1/2 pounds

Jackson: Height 25 1/2 inches
Weight 17 pound 5 oz

Everything is nice and healthy with both of them. Jack is a little lazy compared to Madison at that age but its no big deal.

I can't believe they are getting so big. I remember finding out I was pregnant with Madison. I feel like it was yesterday. They have both brought so much joy and love to our family and I couldn't imagine my life without them. I'm so blessed to have 2 healthy, happy, wonderful children.

On another note, Madison's Birthday party went great and thanks to all that came. I don't have very many pics on my camera and hopefully I'll get some off Mom's soon. I'll post them as soon as I can.